122710 0922

You say you'll forgive and trust again.
But it will not happen.
You'll always be suspicious.

122710 0915

I only remember the details I second guessed.

122710 0912

There really is a love so good it hurts.
But it is not any good for either person involved.
The screaming and the fighting,
It was all so sickly pleasing.
You get addicted to it.
Nobody will understand until they have it.
And when you don't,
You'll be happy, yes.
But sometimes, secretly,
In the back of your mind,
You'll yearn for it.

122710 0909

I'm not sure that there's ever
Been a person more prone to destructive behavior than you.

122710 0908

I wonder,
Do you stop as much as I do?
To remember?
I stop all the time,
Dead in my tracks,
So remembering a promise,
Or an argument.
I don't want to forget.
I want to remember,
I never make the same mistakes again.

121410 1219

I talk about the past
Because I have nothing else.
At this point I hardly have myself.

12810 2012

I really do not feel well.
I want to go to sleep.
But I need to do my homework.
I said I wouldn't wait up,
But of course I am.

12810 2011

That was probably the first time
Someone stuck up for me
When someone else called me a whore.
The very first time.
Which is really sad.
That's probably the first time a boy stood up for me as well,
And he isn't my boyfriend.

12510 0054

Oh God, please,
We're doing it right,
We're doing it as right as we can,
Please don't let things change.
Please, God, please.

112810 0009

I feel at home with you.
I am very fond of your mother.
She is how my mom should be.
I am fond of Shawn,
I suppose.
I am fond of Colby,
Although he is very annoying.
And of course there is you.
When I walk into a strange room,
And you're by my side,
I feel completely confident.
It's nice.
You make everywhere we go easy.
You are my super hero.

112010 0352

The Bucket List was a good movie,
But it left me horribly frightened.
What if I lose my husband,
What if he forgets what it feels like to hold my hand every time we walked down the street?
Someone I had a future with forgot how that felt in one year.
How can I trust anyone else with the rest of my life?

112010 0350

I hate you.
And my hate for you
Is just as passionate,
And strong,
And breathtaking,
As my love for you was.
As my love for you still is,
In its very own sick manifestation.

121310 0122

I hope you're out there in the cold,
Just like you left me.