53111 0337

The silence and the dark are my worst fears.
Because one will know oneself,
In either

53111 0334

I tell everyone I meet,
Everyone is made for someone.
Of course even I know this to be a lie,
As reassuring as it is...
I've found some people are made to be in-betweens.

53111 0330

Sometimes I wonder what you think about when you go to sleep.
Am I the green flash?
Like sunsets.
Or am I this dull aching throb like you used to be for me?
Or is it how it is for me now?
A ghost hovering over your head,
Attacking when you're vulnerable,
When you have more problems than you can handle to begin with?
Is it her? Her body?
The way she laughs.
Is it me? Do you regret it?
You can say you do but is that what you feel?
Of course,
None of this matters.
It's just upsetting thoughts
For an already upset mind.

52911 0241

It is so frustrating to want something for so long,
To have it for days at a time,
then to watch it slip from your hands once again
for
weeks
or
months

52711 0057

In 9 hours I shall begin
the final hours of the beginning of my life.
It will be bittersweet
And I will be turning pages I do not wish to turn.

52611 2201

My words are taken out of context
And I can not stand such ignorance.

52411 2246

Taking a break,
From trying to be lovely.
Just to say thank you for coming here.
To have you read things I cannot say out loud feels so intimate,
And I wish there were a way
I could reach out to all those who have come here the past three days.
I appreciate it endlessly
And hope that something I have written gives you hope in some way.
That's all I hope for with this.
Thank you,
Thank you,
Thank you.