122312 0222

You consume me,
Every inch of me,
With the lips that I thought were soft.

121112 0645

It was a conversation in a dead night,
a shaky voice trying to stay strong,
explaining that sometimes
love is not enough.
But,
from the look in her eyes,
she already knew.

121112 0640

Why I am feeling this tonight
is something I do not understand,
and do not want to understand.
I welcome the sadness like an old friend,
wrapping its fingers around my heart,
my lungs,
and squeezing.

121112 0632

The anger that still plucks the nerves behind my eyes

is unsettling in a way I can not control.

I think of a room lit only by a lamp,

Consumed by new furniture,

Steam-cleaned carpets,

Caulked holes.

Hush on repeat,

With pleading goodbye kisses on stiff lips,

asking you not only to stay for the night,

but to stay in my life.

You did neither.

121112 0627

You could have had me forever,
I gave you everything and more.
And you gave me away,
So you may have me and all of the others

freely.

0300 111112

You do not always consider
how much weight your words have
until you see the one you transfer it to
struggling underneath them all.

0249 111112

It burns like bile rising up my throat,
a fogginess
the settling of vodka
on an already rattled nerve.
it raises every hair
and every question as well.

0238 111112

I remember the fingers
That strummed me like a guitar
plucked at my strings
and made me sing.
and I feel an absence where my soul should be.

091812 0538

You make my world spin
in such a way
that I am no longer myself

09032012 0003

You are a putrid selfish person
You always will be
You will never change

061012 0120

They were unforgiving
Unyielding
And therefore,
so is my pain.

052712 1319

It was beautiful
And heartwrenching
Your hair and your eyes
And smelling my hair in the morning.
It is all pain.
Just raw pain.

43012 0954

It is hard to breathe,
with all these people continuously taking up the air
with heavy words
and uncontrollable sadness

I suppose there should be a party for the return of inspiration. Unfortunately, the tagalong to my inspiration has often been depression, and I've been feeling it at the edge of myself lately. The heavy gray fog has all the beautiful words I could hope for, but I hate becoming lost in it. Please send me good thoughts and energy while you all continue living out there in your lovely worlds. Thank you.

042712 0735

The hollow
Pound.
Pound.
Pound.
Whispers behind pursed lips,
never exhaled,
never let go of.
Hangs like heavy ornaments from your lungs,
swing swing.
The weight on your stomach is unbearable.
A few hours of crying,
cold cheeks,
weak legs.
How much concealer can cover a night's worth of steady tears?
Tick,
tock,
tick,
tock.
It is waiting for you when you crawl into bed,
a big ugly monster that you still can't conquer on your own.
What is the price on resentment these days?

042712 0730

I do not want your pity
Or your clever solutions
I do not want a quick fix
Or a long talk with you

042712 0728

I am failing
and f
                      a
        llin      g
what am I doing?

042212 0525

I
need
to
stretch
t h e s e
b o n e s


hurryhomenow

41212 1810

There's thunder in my head
I am waiting for the lightning.
There's an ocean in my heart
And I don't know what I am thinking
Anymore

040812 0530

I will take a toothpick to the creases,
As if I could ever
scrape
you
away

040612 0101

This is a flavor I have never tasted,

And I will always want to taste it.

But I do not believe I ever will.

What if,

What if,

What if.

040612 0057

Bricks in my stomach,
Clouds in my head.
Where am I going?

040312 2345

And it is the coldest feeling in the entire world
it slides down my organs
like swallowing an ice cube.
A burning menthol sensation.
Embarrassment and longing,
And knowing I am wrong.