022513 0320

accepting that something is wrong
is the hardest thing I have done
I am scared I will relapse into hiding again

22513 0310

you saw the devil
you drank him away
you made me the devil
you drank me away

22513 0308

silent staring
i wish i could play an instrument
maybe i could figure out which note
would knock my brain back into place.
i am so scared.

22113 0313

please,
do not do what the others did.
i thought i knew you

21813 0537

i want to see how the spark will catch

from what i have seen it engulfs.

i want to know

what it is like to be

engulfed with a pain that isn't mental.

21813 0533

a metal fireplace
and the sweet smoke in your lungs
and the beer on your tongue.
doodlebugs,
and blaming the dog.
thrown away opportunities
the wrong cigarettes
a conversation forever for another day
is it really that much of a shame?

21813 0528

i feel downhill again

laying and staring and hoping for a flame

hoping for the little man in my brain

to pull the chain again and turn everything back on.

20513 1225

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR IN ME
I do not believe you will find it.

20513 0207

you are resonation
you are rusted metal
you are a gate that will never close

you are pain
you are pain
you are pain

20513 0157

does it take liquor for you to fall asleep?

20513 0154

I will never stop wanting to know why.
The question will never stop reminding me
of the scars that you can see
as well as those you can not.